simply put i want to grow old, dying does not meet my expectations

If there is one song that I would like to be representative of May in Berlin, it would be this one. Everything about this song. The beat, the words, the feeling you get when you listen to it. The last few weeks have been insanely busy and are only going to get busier. Right now I’m still only working for one school, but things are looking good with school #2 and I’m going in to meet with my boss from school #3 tomorrow to talk about starting and to sign a contract. All week I will be running around teaching 3 or 4 classes a day at least, and my paycheck for this month is going to reflect all of this, which is even more beautiful!

In addition to my work life finally coming together, my social life has also been blooming in this springtimey Berlin, despite the fact that the weather every day has been 50 degrees, cloudy, and generally rainy and gross. I’ve met even more great people and made more friends in the last few weeks, I’ve been doing more fun things and having great days and great weekends. This weekend was an example of an honestly perfect weekend. Especially since, now that I’ve started working so hard, I feel like I deserve to do things like stay in bed all day, or sit outside and watch bands and drink beers at 2 pm on a Sunday. Weekends are only real weekends when you work all week and you really savor them, I think. The biggest headache right now is just that last weekend my laptop finally died. Thus, I’ve been spending a lot of time in the sketchy internet cafe near my apartment  (which is where I’m writing this at this very moment!) and spending even more time listening to my ipod in my room while reading books. It’s actually not so bad, but since I’m pretty much the luckiest girl in the world, one of my students has offered to lend me one of their four laptops for long-term, basically until I can afford to get my own, which is unbelievably generous and sweet. This means that after Tuesday, I can resume my general internet addiction and get back to spending my weekends hungover, watching the Daily Show in bed.

This week is going to be my busiest week yet! I’ve picked up lots of courses, and will be teaching tomorrow from 7:45 to 9:15, from 10 to 11:45, from 1 to 2:30, then meeting up to sign a contract for job #3 (!!!!!!!!) at 3 pm, coming home for a bit, then teaching again from 6-7:30. Tuesday will be a bit easier, class from 10-11:45 and then from 1-2:30, with a private lesson at 8. Wednesday will be another 7:45 am start, with classes at 10 and 1, but Wednesday night I’m going to see Pavement!!!!!!!!!!!!! It’s hard to express with interrobangs exactly how excited I am about seeing one of my all-time, top 5 favorite bands EVER, but try to understand if you can. Thursday and Friday will be more of the same, just a little less early morning, and then Friday night I’m going to see Boys Noize at some club somewhere (clearly the plans on this one are a bit shakier, but I have faith it will happen). Things have basically become everything I was waiting for since graduation and I’m just trying to catch my breath and realize how nice it feels to have maybe 1/8th of the worries I’ve been carrying around since I graduated. Just being able to take deep breaths and be happy … it’s simply joyful. Now all I need is some sunshine in my life, and it will honestly be complete.

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